It's only the third week of school, but somehow I already feel very detached and far away from some people whom I used to see almost everyday. Part of the reason being they are literally far away, but probably also because of thing(s) which happened during the holidays. Not to mention I have a timetable all by myself, and I'm completely drowned in work which I procrastinated from dunno when. =/

Not just that, I'm already behind my school work, I didn't even bother with what textbooks I need. In fact although I've printed my week 1 notes and stuff, until now I haven't even seen them! D: Like that Olam... I never did finish reading the case and we've been doing it for three week. =/

I keep telling myself that I shouldn't go out so much, but then again, I'm too playful to stop myself. =/ Sometimes I feel guilty about it, but it's only either before or after, and while I'm out I just can't stop myself! D: I'm such a piece of shit! Can't stand myself.

The process of going home and coming back to hall every week is literally torture. It's such an out of sight out of mind matter, but when you finally get back, you feel guilty for leaving again. And the process repeats itself weekly.

I really want to go back to Hong Kong. I'm actually very scared and apprehensive. Afterall, I literally don't know a single person there, my cantonese is almost to the point of being FUBAR, and my brain has slowed down entirely with the whole Singaporean society. Like, can I even get a job there?! Someone asked whether I can really leave everything behind and just leave. I think this is the only time in my whole entire life that I have so much conviction that I can really drop everything and leave. I doubt if anything or anyone else can muster so much courage and determination from me ever again.

Maybe after I've done it, I'll find the strength within myself to do it again, or I'll realize that it's not so bad after all. I don't know.

Que sera, sera.

I know in the process I'll leave behind people I shouldn't, people who need me and whom I've already neglected enough. But the guilt of not going is going to be worse than any from leaving people behind.

Maybe things will change by then.

(4:14 AM)

It supposedly takes 21 days to make a habit. Let's see if I can go shooting 21 days in a row. D:

And maybe even doing tutorial!

...but nah.

(7:54 PM)

Breakfast Bliss = Milk + Rice Krispies + Dried Cranberries + Raisin

Yay! I'm happy because I managed to get Linear Algebra! Yay!



That's how my room looked like last year near CNY because all the stuff were delivered to my room. You literally cannot see the floor on my half of the room with all the stuff. D:

I think I just had the cheapest dinner in a long time! XD

I also cleaned the fridge, and now I have ice, for real! Time to get some ice-cream! =D

I think I'm actually quite free nowadays and experiencing "normal" hall life where I spend a good part of my night in my room by myself. I feels kind of good to have some personal time! And suddenly I feel like I have lots of time! Wow.

I need more bowls and a knife.

(12:54 PM)

My new year resolution is to save 10,000 dollars by the time I graduate. =D

Anyone up for some cochicken? I don't believe the guy actually drank it! It's damn sick! D: But I guess in theory it's really not very gross. Maybe someone should try it might actually be good. =/

My birthday is coming! I don't believe it! I'm getting old! D: Well in case you're planning to get me a birthday present you can consider the following: toaster oven, hairdryer, iron, office clothes & shoes, this chair, PostSecret books, the Trixy (in brown).

Ok, nobody is going to believe if I say it's not a blatant hint to get me a birthday present, but it isn't! My point is that if you were about to get me something anyway, maybe you can try these stuff, but of cos it's up to you. And yeah I realize some of the stuff are seriously ridiculous but hey! That's what a wishlist is for! XD

Or else, you can always contribute to my new year resolution. LOL.

(1:17 AM)

Interest rates dropped!

(12:26 AM)