Nothing makes me feel more girly than... AB214! LOL! It's seriously the only place where I get called feminine and my tutor even said that I was too sweet and gentle. (And that she would date me if she was a guy. Well, if I was a guy I would date her too, I honestly think she's lovely.)

Why do people seem to approach me regarding relationship problems? It's kinda weird considering everything.

Once again, my fantastic school just pissed me off. Oh well, don't even want to talk about it, but stupid attachment. -__-;;;

So because I got so upset about the whole thing, I decided to bake cookies instead of study to make myself feel better. Haha! And I think my cookies are quite nice! Although it's kinda ridiculous cos I can only bake 6 at a time in my tiny toaster oven so I'm like baking thousands of batches or something. Maybe next time I'll try to make it from scratch instead of using the mix.

But at least now (after a small sample pack of Pucca, a small pack of double chocolate koala biscuits, and about 4 batches of cookies) I do feel a lot better! =D Ok, maybe it's time to start studying.

(6:51 PM)

cz rox!
like totally maaan...

(11:16 AM)

"Stress Survival Kit"

Just felt like throwing this together although it's not like I'm very free. I think I was inspired by the kit we were given at SMU. Haha! But anyway it only took a while to finish, in fact most of the time I spent was at the Nanyang SuperMart where I ended up buying $7.90 worth of things, and only $1.60 actually went into the kit. -__-;;; The rest came from my room, and it took me like a total of 15min to write everything. Good to keep junk around after all.

I got cheated to come for project meeting! -__-;;; In the end nobody is here. So Kellyn is sleeping and I'm using comp in her room. At least I have my own laptop otherwise I will just be like super pissed.

I'm like totally binging these few days! Eating and snacking so much more than ever. My pre-Hong Kong self would have been horrified at the amount which I'm eating. =/ Even though my room is full of semi-healthy food, I still keep eating all the fattening stuff. Like last night, I actually ate a curry puff! Black pepper puff actually. That's like so unimaginable just 4 weeks ago, but yesterday I was just happily eating. =/

The other day I was thinking maybe I was the one who started all this cos I misunderstood and that there wasn't actually anything, but I realized that I didn't make myself misunderstand; things happening in my face made me thought in that way. So it's not my fault that I misunderstood if I really did. (No, I'm not making excuses for myself!) I was really thinking hard about everything that's happened and came to the conclusion that it's seriously not me. Although I admit that I contributed (more than enough) to the current situation.

I'm not a potato!!!

Where are we going? I don't know.

From Monday's a Bitch; Looking back on this past week what was...
1.The best meal you had? Noodles + Soba in hall. The meals at SMU were also superb. I think it's a tie.
2.The highlight for you? Citibank Case Challenge at SMU.
3.The lowlight? Screwing up the presentation for the case.
4.Your latest night? 5 or 6am at SMU - and I was already the first to fall asleep!
5.Did you see any movies last week? Nope!

I realised that sometimes I really don't know what's happening when I'm only half awake. It's like being half drunk or something. The next morning I'll wake up and wonder what happened the night before, only to realize that probably I should've just gone to sleep instead of doing anything when I'm only half sober.

(6:33 PM)

So I'm unwillingly back in Singapore.

I seriously don't know what my problem is.

Today I was feeling rather friendless because I was trying my best to think of someone I know who stays in the east to go back to school with so I can get help with my luggage, but apparently I couldn't think of anyone. So I sought help from the west instead. =/

Brother is such a dangerous word. LOL.

Hong Kong was great to say the least. I really don't want to be back. Except I spent my time there talking to people who're back here, so I guess actually I am glad to be back somehow. Although I don't want to admit it.

But still I want to be there more.

Some people asked me whether my grandma is really that important, and the answer is yes. With my parents, it's just a lot of guilt. But with my grandma, it's not guilt. Well, there's guilt too, but there's so much more than just that.

Will always be my grandma's little girl.

I would say that I'm feeling emotionally vulnerable recently, but that'll just be an excuse. Although it's true to a certain extent. Somehow I don't feel good seeing the photo. I think I'll have to face up to the truth soon.

But then again, that's what I've been telling myself for weeks.

At least I received my first piece of good news today! We got into the Citibank Case competition! w00t! So exciting because I think we're going to have fun! =D

Going crazy.

(4:27 AM)